I don’t even know how to feel about college.
I miss my mom, but I don’t miss being home. I miss going to work, but I don’t miss the people; I miss the money. This Friday, I’ll be receiving my last paycheck for awhile. Also, biology is kicking my butt. The readings are short, but the information doesn’t make any sense because you have to have a lot of background information, which I don’t have for some reason.
I keep getting discouraged, but I know that if I continue working hard like I currently am, I can do it. Also, something my mom told me just a few weeks ago, was that she’s never met someone who worked hard and never got to where they wanted to be.
It’s not that I don’t work hard; I just don’t think I’m smart enough. I really, really need to figure out if this is for me, which I believe it is, but it’s just so hard. For everyone else it comes so naturally, but I’m sure I can’t be the only person who is struggling. I’m willing to go in and get extra help. I want this so bad; no one even knows how bad I want this.
I don’t just want it for myself or my future life, but for my mom and dad.
I think that’s all I have to say for now.